your ringtone could be used to repel rodents.

it's something i've always wanted to do, but i must not want it badly enough to make it happen. i mean, yeah, it's complicated, but still - things you want, you make them happen. i could start small and go for two weeks in the summertime, but my two spare weeks in the summertime are spent at brigadoon. would i rather be on the appy-t than at bridagoon? false dichotomy.

brigadoon is something i know how to make happen, so it's orders of magnitude closer to my grasp than the appy-t. closer is easier than far away.

and, there's a couple folks at brigadoon who are counting on me now, to go so they can go. not that i couldn't say - sorry, folks, but i gotta do this other thing. because i could. i could say that. but saying that would lead to disappointment and disappointing other people is hard, so it's easier to go to brigadoon.

and, i love the brig, so would i really want to give up my once-a-year chance to be there in order to go do this other thing that i don't even know if it would be fun or good or just hellish? it's easier to do the known thing.

and, brigadoon is free, so that's a big plus right there. well, this year i spent like $80 on harmonicas and harmonica instruction books, but still - free room & board. the appy-t isn't cost intensive while you're doing it - there's not a galleria out there and you don't have to pay for a hotel room - but it IS cost intensive to get out there. you've got to get a bunch of equipment. free is easier than expensive.

so, brigadoon is free, known, and close, and my being there makes other people happy. the appy-t is expensive, unknown, far away, and potentially disappointing to others. all the weight's on the brig side of the scale.

i am not getting any younger, though, am i?