there's a fine, fine line between reality, and pretend; and you never know 'til you reach the top if it was worth the uphill climb.

i haven't run in many days now because i am paying $45 a pop to get professional rehab advice and that advice includes "don't run right now". there's a sort of trust thing between a doctor or therapist and patient where the dr or PT gives advice and the patient follows it. the pro strives to give good treatment and the patient strives to follow instruction. then, the patient gives honest feedback, the professional offers more advice which the patient follows and so on down the merry path of healing. sometimes it takes 18 months to find out you have asthma, sometimes 1 visit to find out you've got a broken bone. my PT said "it's a process" and that's not news to me but there is a freakin fine line between being a marathon runner and sitting around starbux eating punkin bread. and here i am, across that line. i just hope when the time comes, i can find my way back.