did you hear about that wimbledon match -- it went on for like a week or something.

so we are watching this movie where this girl is characterized as depressed and she's in college but drops out because of this so-called depression then she's got a job lined up with rolling stone which she cannot seem to hold onto, but really the way it's portrayed in the movie she just does whatever she damb well pleases and says whatever she damb well pleases so i am not certain it's an accurate depiction of depression. seems that she's a bit of a free spirit with a touch of paranoia and way, way, waaaay too much reliance on other people to form her self, and i am not an expert by any means but if that is what depression is, then... hrm....

wait.

nevermind.

today i went for a yog outside. i have been on the treadmill a few days nursing my hip and catering to my lungs's apparent aversion to the heat and humidity. i have had about enough of the great indoors and decided what i needed was a dose of vitamin sunshine. «how did that work out for you, ace?», you ask, and i will tell you, «blech.» that is how it worked out - blechly.

when i got back and was logging my "run" and noticed my rolling mileage on the last 7 days is 49 miles and so, durr, that is about 10 more miles than usual. i aim for a 40 mile week each week with 30 or 32 during the week and 8 or 10 on the weekend. because this weekend i am headed to brigadoon (!!) i didn't want to leave 8 or 10 miles so i bumped up the week trying to get to 7 per day, 35 during the week.

WHAT'S THE FREAKING POINT, ACE?

the point is that now i'm a bit high on the rolling total and the sad truth is i cannot simply decide i am going to run more and then go do it with no residual effects. increased physical activity apparently requires something different than a mental decision and making room on the schedule. it just seems like if i make the time and decide to do [insert activity here] then i should be able to. why does it seem like this should be true? because up until maybe like 3 or 4 years ago, it was true.

::sigh::