what did you say?

meant to say --i love you-- but it came out --go away--
meant to say --forever-- but instead said --not a day--
meant to say that you're the one i cannot live without.
you hung the sun and moon and stars. you banish all my doubt.
instead spent all night yelling, throwing things about.

you wonder why i cannot say the things you want to hear.
accuse me of belligerence, obstinance, and fear.
i tell you that i'm not afraid and i don't want to fight.
it's you won't let the matter go. you kept us up all night.
your cat has the solution, gone at dawning light.

i have a question of my own, now it's your turn to answer.
you found me out there all alone, why did you think --i'll chance her--
i never led you to believe that i was one to need you.
and you need to be needed so i never will complete you.
you lie to yourself, delusion will defeat you.