who would do that to a rabbit??

back in the day, we didn't have velcro and we had to tie our shoes like real humans. i remember not knowing how to tie my shoes b/c there was this big chart on the kindeygarden wall with everyone's name and a bold notification of whether or not each could tie their shoes. i could not. then, i could. perhaps i osmosed the knowledge. or, it was an extremely traumatic experience which i have purged from the memory banks. or, perhaps i purged it simply to make room for something more fascinating, since this clearly is not fascinating at all.

so i could not tie them and then i could and i don't remember learning, ergo i don't remember being taught so i don't know who taught me, but they taught me wrong. the way i throw under with the left hand on the first pass makes the bow come out wonky and it invariably hits me in the ankle, so i have to do a double knot and run the lace back thru to make it leave me the hell alone. i thought that everyone had to do this. turns out, not so much. other people throw under differently and end up with a nice, flat bow.

i deduced this by trial & error and started utilizing a different throwing-under motion. i thought i would start doing it this new way all the time, as this way seemed better. but then i missed my old, wonky bows and my left-handed throw under, and i was afraid i would lose this primordial part of me altogether - this part of me from the mysterious nowhere, the lost memory of learning to tie shoes.

so i went back to the old way. i like my wonky bows - they are my heritage.